On my Mysticism: or, does anyone really want to hear me whine about this?

I am a mystic in the sense that I have a very intimate connection with the divine. In particular, I am connected to the Pan-Asian Hindu and Buddhist goddess Sarasvati, though to me She very often comes across as the incredibly Japanese Benzaiten-sama. You see, the divine I connect to is not an impersonal entity, but one with a very definite personality. She likes yogurts and rich, fresh milk from pastured cows….and She loves strawberry ice cream. She is protective and loving, but a bit possessive. I am Hers and Hers alone.

When I came to the conclusion that the best way to define myself was as a “mystic,” I then wondered what the next step was. Writing about it seemed the obvious answer. Herself is a goddess of eloquence, and She orders my words in ways that others will understand. You see, I have no problem with inspiration. In fact, I have rather too much inspiration at times. My mind overflows with ideas, but I struggle to communicate them properly. From a metaphysical standpoint (and forgive the woo), my third eye chakra is incredibly active, while my throat chakra is…pitiful. It’s part of the Asperger’s, I suspect.

Sarasvati is a constant presence in my life now, in a way that I could only have dreamed in my days as a Christian, when I prayed to G-D and received no answer. She is always simply…there. The best way I can describe it is that she is immanent in my person. It is, needless to say, a very personal connection. Yet I’m not ashamed to talk about it to those who will understand. My problem is – who would really want to listen?

You see, when I say “I’ve got a goddess living inside me,” it sounds like I’m saying that makes me terribly important. And well…that’s not it. Sarasvati’s not confined to just being inside me. I know that, and I don’t want anyone to think for a moment that I’m some kind of authority on Her. If you want to know the facts about my goddess, check out a book from the library. Or better yet, ask a Hindu priest, or a Tibetan monk, or the priest at a Shrine of Benzaiten-sama. All I can tell you is what know. And that’s actually just a small part of the picture.

3 thoughts on “On my Mysticism: or, does anyone really want to hear me whine about this?

  1. Well, the divine being Sarasvati Devi is the wife of lord Brahma who is the secondary creator of this material world. She is also present in this world in the form of a river. Five branches of that river—Sarasvati, Supapra, Candra, Kanaka, and Nanda—flow in the Pushkara area, but at present they are invisible to ordinary eyes.

    The literal meaning of the name Sarasvati is the one who gives the essential knowledge (Sara) of our own Self (Sva). The goddess Sarasvati is also considered the Goddess of Learning, or of education, intelligence, crafts, arts, and skills. As she is the consort of Brahma, who is considered the source of all knowledge, Sarasvati is knowledge herself. Thus, many students or even scholars may worship her for her blessings. She is, therefore, depicted as white in complexion, and quite beautiful and graceful. She is also called Savitri (daughter of the Sun), Brahmi (wife of Bramha), Sharada (giver of essence), Vagishvari (mistress of speech), Mahavidya (knowledge supreme).

    You may also find some interesting insights about mysticism on my blog page. Blessed be.

  2. I love that explanation for the meaning of her name, however, I’m afraid that it is factually incorrect, from the sources I’ve read. Sarasvati was originally a deified river, and took her name from the river Sarasvati. Its name meant “The Flowing One” – or so I’ve been told.

    I actually like this etymology far better than “Knowledge of our own self” as I know my own self very, very well. My problem has been figuring out what to do with that knowledge. As I mentioned in the post, I have an incredibly strong and active third eye, but a very weak throat chakra. I know myself better than most, but communicating with others is the problem. As “The Flowing One” Sarasvati-Benzaiten has patronage of all things that *flow.* Not just water, but more importantly for me, ideas and words and communication.

    I also firmly believe that the Hindu accounting is not the only “true” version of Sarasvati. The Buddhist versions found in various sutras, such as “The Sutra of Golden Light” and also the lore that she was a patroness of the Second Dalai Lama, convince me that she refuses to be confined by creeds, and when I went to Japan and found her presence in shrines to Benzaiten, I was equally convinced that she was not bounded by petty national lines, either.

    I’m planning to write a post soon on Her history, from her Vedic origins, through Hinduism and Buddhism, and into the syncretic worship of Classical Japan and finally modern Shinto.

  3. OK…after some digging around, it seems that the origin of the name “Sarasvati” is the feminine form of “Sarasvant” which was derived from the proto-Sanskrit word for a marshy, stagnant pool. In Sanskrit, the word for such a pool is “sarashi.”

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